Celebrity Love

Oh hey there people! This is yours truly, M.Philly reporting from my new laptop! I kinda really love it. It's just really nice to be able to do my homework in my room and mindlessly watch stupid YouTube videos. OH and I forgot how much I love Pandora. It's pretty great. Anyway, having the convenience of a laptop, I have some big plans to make my blog even more awesome! Don't get too excited. I am still brainstorming everything I want to do, but once I figure it out, I will let you guys know!

ANYWAY, with this laptop, I have been "surfing the web" more and more. I forgot that my guilty pleasure is reading celeb gossip sites. For anyone who REALLY knows me, you will know that I am slightly obsessed with Spider-Man... slightly meaning completely obsessed and I am not ashamed to admit it. I really love the newest movie with Andrew Garfield, who I think was made to be Peter Parker because he plays him flawlessly. If you haven't seen The Amazing Spider-Man, SHAME ON YOU! You should drop whatever you are doing (after you're done reading) and go watch it because it is just amazing. One of the most amazing parts of it is the love aspect of it because, let's face it... Emma Stone and Andrew Garfield were meant for each other. I don't think I have ever been in love with a celebrity couple as much I am in love with them... (and I was REALLY in love with Nick Jonas and Miley Cyrus when I was about 13.) I mean, just look at them!

Can you say perfect couple?! They are too adorable for words. If they don't get married then something is wrong with the world. I fell in love with them when I saw Spider-Man because they are so awkward, but they are awkward together which makes their chemistry absolutely explosive. I just can't handle them and their amazing love. I would let them adopt me... as like a sister because they are too young to be my parents... Sorry, I am getting a little carried away.

Ok, I am getting off my first thought. Celebrity gossip sites are everywhere, but I really only look on Oceanup, which basically only talks about the younger generation of celebs. I have been keeping up with it for the last week or so and a new celebrity couple is on the horizon and I kinda really like them. Can you guess who?! They are both huge stars... both attractive people... she likes to write songs about her ex's... he's in a boy band... I bet those last 2 gave it away. YOU GOT IT, T-Swizzle and Harry Styles. I am sure that 565168168 One Direction fans would kill me for even saying that I like them as a couple, but good thing they won't see this. lolz For serious though, they are pretty precious. I usually don't like young celebrity couples. I never really like Selena and Justin, and I was never a big fan of Miley and Liam, but I quite fancy "Haylor." I have a good feeling about them, which I could be terribly incorrect about, but they look really nice together. Let's take a look.

Look at how happy the young chap is! 

 Precious moments...

I don't know... I think they are pretty cute. She likes the younger boys and he likes the older ones, so they are basically perfect for each other. What made me like the idea of "Haylor" so much is this video of Harry talking about her. It's pretty precious, so I you should watch it. You must got to second 52 and watch from there. This video also includes Jason Mraz trying to be a peacemaker. He is pretty great.



DID YOU BEHOLD HOW BASHFULLY HE SAID THAT? I couldn't handle the cuteness... so I had to behold it 3 or 4 times. I think they are cute... end of discussion... but no one will beat Andrew and Emma in my book. 

I'm sure you are probably judging me at this point and I am ok with that. I wanted to keep you guys in the know of the cutest celebrity couples on the scene right now. Just trying to help you out here. I'll be back soon to reveal my plans to make this blog the literal bomb.com... I appreciate your visit. Do come back soon!

-M.Philly

PS... This blog has officially gotten over 1000 views! I'm am pretty excited! :)

Exciting

I apologize for about the 338416946th time for not writing in a long while, but I have good reasond. I don't know if you people understand how incredibly slow the desktop at my house is and how busy I have been. Really, I haven't been too busy, but busy enough that I don't have time to sit down and write! Seriously though, I blame it on the computer because it is so slow and annoying and makes me want to cry every time I use it. That's the main reason I haven't blogged is because it's not very convient. I know, dry your tears people because I am going to get better and blog way more. Why, you ask?

I JUST BOUGHT A LAPTOP!

Brand spanking new, baby!!! I am completly overjoyed, even though I paid for it with my own mulah. It will be here in a few days and then I will be blogging all the time. I have a few ideas swirling in my head of what kind of things I want to start writing about, but you are just going to have to wait and see what I come up with.

For now, I have to go do some math homework... online. Another reason having a laptop will be glorious. Get ready for the future people, because it's looking bloggy!!!!

-M. Philly

The Beat my Heart Skipped

I am sure you are probably wondering what this title entails... My heart skipping a beat when I see the most beautiful man on this earth or hearing news that's unsettling. Truth is, it's neither, although as I watched the Lucky One, alone I must add, my heart may have skipped a beat at how attractive Zac Efron is. The title simply is the title of the 2011 Blue Devils' show. No, not the Duke Blue Devils, the Drum Corps. One of the best I might add. Why, you may ask, did I title this post this? Personally, it is one of my favorite Drum Corps International show, mostly for the very beginning of it which blows my mind every time I watch it and my soul cries because it is so beautiful and I have watched about a thousand times. Despite this fact about my love for this show, it's not the reason I used the name. I just really miss my band... They provided the beat that my heart skipped. Allow me to expand.

As you all should know, I was the Drum Major for the RCS Marching Band last year and I honestly LOVED it. Sure we never won anything other than 1st place percussion and color guard and I came in 3rd as DM EVERY single competition, which I shed many a tear about, but I just loved my band. They made me really happy because the majority of them were super cool kids who just liked to play music. There were the couple who didn't want to be there and their attitude showed that, but that was ok... Not really but it is whatever. Our show last year didn't make much sense, but I really liked the music and the fact that we all Bernied... It was really great actually. The thing that I really regret now is not taking full advantage of the time I had with that group of people and how serious I was about being Drum Major. I really wish I would have been as serious at the beginning of the season as I was at the end. I remembered when my band director asked me about being the drum major when I ha only been in the band for less than 6 months. I was like whaaaaa, but at the same time I was like "I can do this!" I knew from that time that I had to make sure my band members liked me enough to actually listen to me. I learned a valuable lesson being DM, which is "in order to be respected, you must first respect." I think I did that pretty well. I tried to be the nice one while my band director was the mean one, which I think created a good balance. The thing that made being the DM a little easier was that the band trusted, respected, and liked me, a least they acted like they did and I really loved them! I still do!

This year they are SOOO good! They won 1st in their first competition this season and I was so blessed to share that day witht them. It was a truly a bittersweet moment for me, seeing them all gather round Mr.Swanson when they had found out they won 1st and for me just to stand back and watch their joy filled faces smile! I was beyond happy for them, still am and I am so proud that they did it! No matter what, in my heart, they will always be my band. Words can't express how wonderful they made my senior year. My favorite and most memorable moments came from band, whether in marching or in concert concert. Many of those people became my best friends.  From teaching someone how to play mallets and then being taught by her, to getting "inappropriatly harassed,", to getting sent out of the classroom for laughing across the room, to people slyly messing up the marimba, or simply having my own paparazzi... I love every memory I made on the field, in the classroom, or on the stage with those people. So for all you bandies reading this, thanks... For being the best band this town has ever seen (in my opinion)! Thanks for being my band and still letting me be a small part of it now! Thanks to my band director for putting up with me 3 periods of the day. Thanks for the endless laughs, tears, and crazy songs we would randomly make up and sing to the 6th graders. I was so blessed to have a teacher that was not only able to handle my crazy self, but was able to let loose and be crazy with me... And let me send pictures of puppies to, just so I could watch him freak out at how cute they wore. I really loved spending half my school day with you... Most of the time.

That band has caused my heart to skip a beat many times because they are just so amazingly great, so stay that way! I love you guys and I miss telling you to shut it and put your horns up... And bernieing with you. Stay classy.

- M.Philly

Ps... Here is the link to the beginning of the sic how I talked about. Maybe it will make your heart skip a beat. It's truly amazing.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MJHxKRXPowg&sns=em

Life with "Ronald"

Ronald McDonald that is... If you didn't already know, I work at good ole' McDonalds! Sounds like the best job that any person could ever have, right?! 

Oh, sorry I was choking on my own sarcasm. To be utterly and completely honest, it's really not all that bad... most days. Actually, I kinda hate the aspect of dealing with rude, brutally mean and the occasional creepy customers. I also hate how digusting it is, in the sense of sweet tea spilling all over you and walking out of the store after your shift is over and feeling like a french fry yourself. Yeah, it's pretty gross, but it's bareable. Most days I really enjoy my job. Oddly enough, I really loved working the 4am shifts over the summer because that's when all the precious old people come in and they are always very nice and love to talk to us. I'm kinda a sucker for NICE old people and little kids, but who isn't? I love when people appreciate when I try to be chipper while taking orders and they tell me that I'm basically the bomb.com. That happens every once in a while and it always makes my day at work much better.

This is me... at work... everyday... so.. much.. excitement... Forrealz, I was pretty excited. Oh and I never wear that apron.

 The one thing I LOVE about my job is the people I work with. Work would suck without all my awesome co-workers. They love me despite the fact that I enjoy talking in ridicilous accents from time to time and that I'm just straight up odd.

Point and case with this picture! People accept my crazy.

 For instance, today I was handing out food in the drive-thru and I was talking to my co-worker beside me about the fact that the person bagging didn't put a straw in the bag, which is my pet peeve in drive-thru! SO, being the dramatic person I am turned very... sharply, I guess you could say, and I knocked over a large tea. The only thing me and my co-worker did was just laugh... and we cleaned up the mess and I said to her, "I'm really glad it was you that saw that and no one else." It's times like this that make me realize that I work with some pretty cool kids. I have made some really great friends from work, but I think the person I have become closest to is my own sista! Okay, sister... she's not much of a "sista" if you know what I'm saying. She is one the managers and we always end up lauging about something really ridiculous or when she isn't working and I am, I'll text her or send her pictures of what's going on. I don't think working at the Dee's would be the same without her, so when she leaves... I'm out. Maybe not, but you get my point. Basically the moral of this post is that working isn't so bad if you have the right people around you.

These two are some of my favorites. These are my 4am pals from this summer, Junelle and Gina. Gina has left us for some McDonalds in Cary and we miss her dearly. We love each other, though. :)

I almost forgot, it's kinda nice to see all the good looking young fellows in Boro come in the store... the whole 5 or so of them. lolz Some of the guys I work with aren't too hard to look at either, but only a couple. Anywho, that's I have to say... for now. Thanks for reading and come back soon!

- M. Philly

PS. I notice that tend to use ... a lot... OH WELL!

The Powerful Force of Imagination

Hey all you boys and girls!!! Here I am... A little over a month since I last posted. I know I  a failure and I keep saying I going get better, so I am not making any more promises!

I just started school... Well COLLEGE! Scary word,  I know. It's not too bad but I am going to be pretty busy. Also, in case you were not aware, I got a new iPod! His name is Jack, also called Jack Jack depending on the day and my mood. He is pretty much the bomb. com!!! In fact, I am using him to write this very blog! He is pretty nifty, but of you see some random typo, just know that he is still young and not perfect. Anywho, I want to get to the point here because despite his awesomeness, typing on Jack Jack is not that fun.

The mind is an amazing thing and in my opinion, the most amazing part of our minds is our imagination. It's sad that so many young people don't have vivid imaginations because they think it is childish to have a big imagination. It's not that they don't have one because everyone has an imagination, it's just that they don't feed it as much as they should. It is a beautiful thing to have a big imagination and it helps when you get older, too. You know those hilarious e-trade commercials with the little talking babies that everyone loves? Well how do you think people come up with things like that? BINGO, it's all in their imagination before they put the idea on paper and then on film! I feel that God has blessed me with an absolutely lively and crazy big imagination! As a child, my sisters always told me that my imagination was much bigger than theirs. I would do the whole "let's plan out my Polly Pocket's whole life and act it out" and I would get frustrated when my friends didnt see my so-called "vision." I guess it's a good thing I want to be an actress! The only bad thing is that sometimes my imagination is sometime a little too vivid and alive to the point that I spend more time just sitting around daydreaming instead of doing something important. Or my dreams are a little too real! I think everyone has those dreams where it feels SOO real you can almost feel the person in your dream or whatever. In the case that I am thinking about that actually inspired me to write about this was this really creepy dream I had last night! It was as if it was actually happening because I was laying in bed, asleep as I really was and all of a sudden this hand starts coming toward me and I was pushing it away from me I stop it from choking me! It was really weird because it was literally just a hand... Well more like an arm from the elbow down, but really creepy and really real!!!!!  I woke up and had to calm down, after I turned my lamp on. The scary thing was that I could feel the struggle and almost feel that hand getting so close to my throat!!! I am sure you have dreams like that and that is my point. Our imaginations can be such a wonderful thing but it can be a pretty scary thing, too. Does that mean you shouldn't feed it? NO, just don't feed it the wrong things, like scary  movies or inappropriate things! Well at least in my case, I can't feed mine scary movies... Embrace your imagination and don't be afraid to use it!!

Don't you like how I refered your imagination to some kind of animal or child that has to be fed? Well it just kinda happened so I went with it. I must be getting to sleep now, seeing I have an 8 o'clock class tomorrow and it's past midnight! Goodnight and let your imagination run WILD and don't tie it down!!!!!

- M. Philly

New DESIGN!

SO, what do you guys think?! New banner, made by me. (well the writing at least... I owe the rest to Cutest Blog on the Block) AND then new background! I still don't know how to get rid of the tacky chairs, but at least they match! I guess I will have to get Susan to help me out when she comes home!

Anywho, I am working on a super duper cool banner that I hope doesn't turn out to be complete and total crap! In case you all were not aware, I used to be a photo editing master... back in the day when my life revolved around looking cool and Miley Cyrus. It's true, I can't deny I was quite obsessed with the Montana that is Hannah! I would get bored and go take pictures and then put them all together. I must admit that I was pretty good. Want to see a few?! SURE I will share with you!!!

This is one of my favorites and probably one of my best.

Another one that I quite liked.

I really like this one. It has pictures in the vector.

I know you are probably thinking, "WOW how did she get so good!?" Well I guess it's confession time.

Like I said before, I used to be obsessed with Miley Cyrus, therefore I made a fan myspace page that I had for a good year or so. I used to suck at editing but then I discovered PhotoFiltre, aka the free cheap version of Photoshop. I love it and I still use it all the time. I learned a lot of my skills from other fansite and tutorials and I could do just about anything. Then one day I realized that I was wasting my time with a stupid myspace fan page, so I gave it to someone else who deleted it, which it kinda made me sad because it was like all my hard work had gone down the drain, but I got over it. After I got rid of it I still made what people call "signs" for other fansites I was still friends with, so I thought I would share one of my BEST works to date. My best one is who knows where. It was quite epic and I spent hours on it, but this one is PRETTY great!

Pretty good I thought!!

It is quite embarrassing to admit this little secret that I have kept for a long while. I was probably about 13/14 when all this went down and I still remember a lot of the stuff about the editing program. It comes in handy sometimes and having tons of cute fonts that I used come in handy, too! lol

Anywho, I am off to make something like that... just with picture of myself and friends. We will see if it looks right. If not, I will still put it on here to show you all. Don't think less of me because of my past obsessions... please.

M. Philly

Oh hey there...

I have a PERFECTLY logical and practical explanation for the fact that I haven't blogged in a month or so... WELL, as you all know (or I hope you would know) I graduated last month AND with graduating I had to give back the laptop the school provided for me, therefore I have to use the desktop at my house and let me tell you, it is slower than a REALLY slow turtle. Okay, that's a bit of an overstatement, but it's all the way downstairs and I can't run downstairs at late hours of the night and start blogging... it may disturb my parents. ANYWHO, the short explanation is that I no longer have a laptop and I am too lazy to use the desktop. There you are.  I do apologize for my absence though. I have many instances where I get into those deep thought moments and think, "I must blog about this," but then never get around to it.

Anyway, I decided that it was time to actually put my feelings into words. I have been going through a lot lately... emotionally... with myself. It's not that I'm UNhappy, but I'm just not.. well, happy. Actually, I don't even know what I am! Confused would be a better word. I have just been second guessing every decision I make lately and I don't like it. There have been a few instances where I really regret doing things or in my case most of the time, NOT doing something. There have been some opportunities that I should have taken FULL advantage of, but I didn't and I really hate that I didn't. For instance, Youth Conference was this weekend and I kinda wanted to go but I was too afraid to ask my parents and take off work and just go because I would be one of the oldest there, but seeing how much fun everyone had REALLY makes me wish I would have gone. Instead, I stayed home and worked... FUN, I know! Well, I did go to Carowinds the day YC started so I guess I did have some fun! That was a decision well made. Anywho, I kinda hate the way things are going in my life right now. I like work... most days, but sometimes I just don't like being around some of the people I work with. I am slowly seeing myself becoming more judgemental and almost mean just because of the way some people treat me and my co-workers, which absolutely disgusts me. I'm just not happy with who I am right now.

 Funny how I can so openly put this out for ALL the public to see, but I wouldn't dare tell anyone this face to face. I guess that's why I blog. It allows me to express myself and reflect upon my feelings and thoughts and allow myself to make adjustments to my life where needed. I doubt many people read my blog, but I don't really care. I love when people do, but it wouldn't bother me if no one did because, like I told someone once before, my blog is for me. Call me selfish, but it's a place where I can tell how I feel and I don't feel like I am being judged because I don't see how people react to what I say. It's not somewhere for me to put people on blast or make sure EVERYONE knows every detail about my life and feels sorry for me, it's for me to feel a little better about my life and to just get things off my chest. It's a burden to keep things inside, so that's why I blog and I love it and I MUST do it more often.

Well, I guess I need to catch you readers up on things that have gone on, but that's for another night and I will do it because I have had some exciting things happen in my life. Thanks for letting me vent and being willing to... read it. You rock. :)

-M. Philly

Finally...

Yep, the day is almost here... Graduation day. I still can't believe it. It's such an insane feeling to think WOW, high school is actually over! I'm close to tears just thinking about it. School has been 13 years in the making and I'm finally done. Now on to college with a bunch of people I don't know. No more seeing the same faces I've been seeing for 5, 10, or 12 years. No more giving Mrs. Wilkerson a high-five everyday. No more school plays. No more band... AHHHHH I'm being too sad about this. Let's think about the happy side of this whole thing. No more AP classes... aka no more AP TEAHCER. (Yes, I meant to leave that singular) No more having to wake up at 6:30 for seminary every morning. No more annoying underclassmen who think they are better than the upperclassmen. No more dress code, but despite all the great things about leaving high school, I'll be sad. I'll probably cry... like a big baby along with many other people in my class. I'll be wishing the band was there playing and all my favorite 6th graders was there to yell my name. Oh garsh, I'm going to miss those 6th graders so stinkin' much. They were the highlight to my day. My sunshine on a rainy day and now I'm not going to get to see them every day!!!! I never thought this would be so hard. I always thought "Man, I can't wait to get out of high school and get out of this place," but I don't want to leave. I just want to stay right where I am and never leave, but I know it's time for me to move on and grow up. Gross, I know. On the upside, I will achieve one of my goals on Friday!!! YES, I am speaking at graduation!!! I am just so stinkin' excited, but I have NO idea what to say. I'm at a total loss for words with this speech! How do you say "hey thanks for coming" and then sum up how much RCS means to me?! It's not something easily put into words... maybe I'll say that. hahaha I'm just really thankful for how amazing RCS is and the great experiences, friends, memories, and knowledge I've gained from being there. RCS truly is the best school around. I couldn't imagine my life without it and I know I would be completely different without it. I love my fellow seniors and I will miss them all, but I'm so happy for all of them and I know their futures are bright!

CLASS OF 2012 BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Useless...?

I discovered this guy on youtube today. His name is Jon Cozart... pretty hilarious and talented and quite good looking. He is a complete and total nerd, which makes me love him all the more, BUT he has a tumblr and as I looked at it for a while I came across something he re-blogged and I quite liked it.This is what it said.




"You get home from a long day at work and turn on the TV. It’s been a long week, so you think to yourself- maybe i’ll take the family to a movie on Saturday. Maybe we’ll even go on a vacation soon! We could visit museums and go to plays and see all sorts of fun attractions.

When you turned the TV on, nothing happened. There are no actors to entertain you.
When you went to the movie theater, nothing was showing. There were no advertisements to tell you that anything was showing, so you went to the theater to find out. Nothing playing. There is no one to film and create movies for you. Well at least your vacation will be fun, right? Not like there will be any plays to see and there won’t be anything in the art museums.
Well at least you have the shack you are living in that you made out of cardboard and sheets.

Not like you could find an architect to build you a house with all the money you’re making as an engineer."


Being a theatre lover and wanting to major is something pertaining to theatre, I more than appreciated and loved this. It's completely true. What would the world do without actors. There would be no entertainment and nothing to watch. Just some food for thought.

- M. Philly

Happens for a reason.

You know how people say that everything happens for a reason? Well, I firmly believe that. I also think that people say things or do things for you at just the time you need it. It's not a coincidence that my sister sent me a message that encouraged me more than anything has in a really long time, when I have been feeling absolutely no confidence in myself or my words. I've been struggling lately with my school work... well really just English... and I have not been grasping things. It's something really frustrating to me and I hate it!!! I've lost a lot of confidence in my ability to work and partly because I feel I'm never quite good enough for my teacher. As the AP test is tomorrow, I have been struggling to find that confidence I need to go into it with. I've simply been thinking "I'm going to fail. There is no hope. I failed last year, I'm going to BOMB it this year." I have had no hope and no drive, but I do now. I've got to practice what I preach and be enthusiastic and go in thinking "I'm going to do my absolute best and it's going to be great." I know I'll be fine tomorrow, now... with a little cram review of literary terms and novels and of course a blessing from Dad in the morning. I'm going to walk into that room thinking, hoping, and praying for the best for ALL my classmates. My confidence is here and I'm going to be fine, so thanks for that boost. I LOVE YOU. Now... "Why you tryin' act like somebody hit you upside the head with a basketball?" Just thought I would add that in for some comic relief.

-M. Philly

Proud to be...

No matter what happened today  in North Carolina, I am MORE than proud to be an American and a North Carolinian. I live in a country that allows me to vote and have my say in what happens. Sure, it sucks for people that lose or in today's case an amendment passes that you don't agree with, but wining about it on Facebook is not going to change anything. If  you want to make a difference, then DO SOMETHING other than complain about how stupid you think people are because they don't believe the same things you do. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion and you shouldn't judge people because they believe differently Honestly, I feel people might crucify me if I said I was for the amendment... some of the posts I have been reading tonight make me wonder if people would. I'm not going to express my views or my opinions because it's all been said and done. My main point for this post is just to say that I love this country and my state because it is one of the best places on this earth to live. Why do you think so many people come here illegally?! BECAUSE IT'S THE BOMB.COM!  If you don't appreciate it, then move... yeah, I don't think you hate it that much. I respect your opinions and your views and I hope you will do the same for me. I just REALLY hope people get this into the election in November because it is WAY more important in my eyes because we are voting for a ruler, a very powerful person, a leader and people don't really grasp that the President REALLY does make a difference. Well, guess what... they kinda do. I suggest you read up on the candidates if you go and vote. I have been because I'll be able to vote this November and I intend to take full advantage of that opportunity because I don't want someone in office that is going to damage OUR country. I have been trying to investigate the candidates and not rely on my parents beliefs, which I hope many of today's youth will do. I am in no way trying to sway your vote at all, but I just want to share this AWESOME video for Mitt Romney. It is quite excellent. It brought an overwhelming feeling over me that was a more than good feeling. It was a GREAT feeling... especially the "God-fearing man" part. I like it a lot... so much actually that I favorited it. No hate, just facts and done in a creative and effective way. Please watch it. It is worth your time. (It not showing up on the blog, SO the link is below.)

http://youtu.be/qKMDS4cB58U


Thank you and GOD BLESS AMERICA. 


M. Philly

Change, for good.

Lalala life... well life is crazy right now and not a good kind of crazy. AP tests start this week and I want to scream just thinking about it. I'm kinda done with the whole school thing. Thank GOODNESS I only have a few more weeks of legit schooling. I graduate June 1st and I'm pretty stoked, yet totally terrified. I think my goal of speaking at graduation is a no-go which makes me want to cry, but I guess I'll get over it. I'm simply introducing speakers... I'm literally almost to tears as I type this, but it is what it is. Also, I think I may be the only person in my senior class that doesn't have a single thing figured out. I've been accepted to Southern Virginia University and UNC-G, but I really don't have a good feeling about either school at this time. I confused and tired and AHHH! I'm thinking I may just stay at home for a year and go to PCC, the community college here in town, until I figure out what I want to do with my life. I think that is going to be the best thing for me because I don't feel quite mature enough to go off on my own. I'm kinda lazy and I waste way too much time on ridiculous things, so taking this year to collect myself and save up some money will help me. It's not a definite choice, but it's a high contender in my list of plans. I'm just going to change a lot of things about myself, for the better.

I'm not going to waste time.
I'm going to be healthy, which means exercising and eating good.
I'm going to be more diligent in my scripture study.
I'm going to be a better friend.
I'm going to HAVE FUN and take risks, without breaking morals.
I'm going to have a social life, which I'm lacking in right now... thank you McDonald's for making me work every weekend.
I'm going to make new friends.
I'm going to love more... love EVERYONE.
I'm going to be more kind to people and myself.
I'm going to grow in the church and really strive to grow my testimony. 
I'm not going to be jealous of people that I really shouldn't be jealous.
I'm going to learn something new everyday.
I'm going to do something different.
I'm going to find more good books to read. (Hunger games... best series ever.)
I'm going to write down my thoughts and these crazy stories I waste so much time imagining.
I'm going to go to more concerts.
I'm going to keep my room clean.
I'm going to improve my talents.
I'm going to spend more time with my family.
I'm going appreciate people more.
I'm going to learn more songs on guitar.

I'm going to be the best I can be. 

Yes, yes I am. I have said this for a while, but I'm going to do it this time... forrealz. I'm tired of people being disapointed in me and being disappointed in myself. I WILL change and you can hold this against me.Actually, please do hold it against me and remind me! I would write more, but it's way past my bedtime, so I will have to explain some things later. For now I must go read Sparknotes... I'm very thankful for this wonderful site that has gotten me through English since 9th grade. I would read this book, but really.. Tess of the d'Urbervilles just doesn't seem to interesting to me. Peace to your brother and your mother.

-M. Philly

PS... I'm kind of in love with One Direction. They are quite dreamy and talented... but I must say Niall is my favorite just because he is so adorable. I will have to write a post about them because they deserve one. Their album is pretty great... just enough pop to satisfy. Sorry, the old crazed fan girl Madeline is back in town. lolz

Blah.

I really wish I had my sisters right now. I just need them to make me laugh while I cry and forget about my worries. I just wish they were here. That's all.

-M. Philly

Live.

IT'S SPRING BREAK... finally!! I've been waiting for this week since Christmas break was over! Well, I'm down in good ole' Mississippi with my mom visiting her parents and some aunts and uncles. I'm having a pretty good time, I can't complain. I quite like going out of town because I get to get away from all the people I don't want to see everyday and just from my little town for a while. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE Roxboro, but after a while it's nice to go somewhere where hardly anyone knows you and be around family. My family is pretty awesome and the aunt that we're staying with, Aunt Ruth... she is one of the BEST cooks out there, so I am eating GOOD! Anywho, what I really wanted to talk about it today.

Today just HAPPENS to be Easter. It's kind of a low key holiday in my household seeing that I'm the youngest and the Easter Bunny only leaves me a bag of candy. The thing is, we take Easter as more of a remembrance day instead of a HEY let's PARTY and buy tons of candy! Yeah, we come together as a family and eat and my Granny gets us all little gifts, but I know my family knows the true meaning of it all and I KNOW that they mean what they say.

"They mean what they say"

That's the main thing I wanted to blog about. I got on Facebook to find people posting statuses about "Jesus paid for our sins. Today is the day to remember." It's great that people are saying this, but so many of those people I KNOW won't think about it tomorrow or next week. It makes me a little upset that people put on this front of "Oh, I am so religious! I post statuses about how much I LOVE and worship Jesus," but they go out and do immoral things, party, get wasted, do drugs, and are just not the people they come across as. Now I'm not saying that I am any better than anyone in ANY shape or form because I know I make just as many mistakes as any other person, but I know I try everyday to be better and many times I fail, but I just keep on keeping on. I think that people just don't try as much anymore and it saddens me. Something in church today that I noticed was up on one of the bulletin boards that really struck me was this quote...

I think that was a Young Women's theme a while back, but it struck me. What if EVERYONE who put up a status about Christ today really and truly lived like they believed? The world world would be a completely different place! It would blow yours and my mind! I know I've made mistakes and I look back on them and I am trying to see the lessons I need to learn from them and see what I can do differently in the future. I know I can't take back any actions, but I can sure try and make things better in my life and I can do all this because of the atonement of Christ. It's been such a huge blessing in my life and I think it's taken me a while to gain a true testimony of this, but I KNOW that it so great now. I'm so thankful for repentance and the peace it offers me each and everyday I am willing to use it. That's the point, you have to use it! Boy, I didn't use it for a long time, but once I did GOSH it felt great! Talk about a HUGE weight lifted off my shoulders! I'm just really thankful for the atonement and the resurrection because it gives me comfort to know that there is more than just THIS life. Pretty awesome.

Alrighty, I'm all done for now. I plan to blog more soon because I have a few things I've been thinking about. I shall do that hopefully this week. Aight... peace homies!

-M. Philly