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Is it odd that when I re-read my blog posts, I chuckle at how hilarious and clever some of things I write are?

Nah, that's just me.

That's all.

-M. Philly

Vent

Hey all you boys and girls! Been a long time, I'm aware, but I'M BACK! I will soon have a lot more free time, so I can post more! Exciting, I know. WELL, I've had a few things on my mind for the past few months, but I haven't had much time to vent them out, so that's what I'm going to do. If you don't feel like reading, that is quite alright. This blog here is just kinda therapeutic for me. It's just a place I can go and write my feelings without having to physically writing it. Anywho, back to these things on my mind...

A. How great is this place?! The earth is just so magnificent that I can't even describe how much it makes me happy. The sky, the stars, the sun, THE MOON(which is extremely full tonight), EVERYTHING is so mind blowingly amazing. Yes, I did just make up blowingly... BUT more than just the earth, but my town, my home, and my school! I love them all. I love Roxboro. It's a great place and people don't appreciate how great it is! My house just got all redone on the outside, so it's looking pretty baller! I love my house and how it protects me and it's a home. I LOVE my school. I wouldn't want to be at any other school. Sure, some of the teachers bother me just a bit, but for the most part it's an amazing learning environment. I love it so much and it makes me not want to graduate....

AND

B. is for boys... Oh those rotten ole' boys with their charming ways and good looks. You just can't seem to resist them. Boys have not been something that is on my mind a lot for a long while, until these past few months. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm thinking more in depth and more maturely about relationships and guys and things of that manner. Through all this thinking, coming from experiences and such, I have concluded that it's next to impossible to find the right guy... I am completely aware that I'm only 17 (almost 18), but there are always issues with guys. You think you find one you REALLY like and they are just so great but there is always something in the way... Let's think of some of those things

1. They have a girlfriend. (Even though you would so much better with him than her)
2. They are too young. I think I just attract the younger kids... What's wrong with me!?!
3. They live far away. Long distance relationships, yeah they don't really work out.
4. They are a total and complete jerk bag to other people(yet super nice to you).
5. (In my case) They're not Mormon. Common issue for me.
6. They won't commit... aka they like to flirt with all the ladies.

Aren't these all true!?!?! Some of these I find watching others relationships, because let's face it... I haven't had the most experience with relationships, but I do know a few things. I know it's really hard when you like a guy with so much of your being, but you know you can't have him and it just KILLS you inside to see him and you can't even talk to him because you know it will just cause you more pain! And the guy you don't see that often, but when you do your cheeks turn bright red, your heart starts beating 100 miles an hour, but you know that your relationship is all over and past, even though you KNOW you both still have feelings for each other. Yeah, not fun... at all. BUT despite the fact that boys have been kinda stressing my brain and feelings a bit lately, I'm single and I'm completely happy with that fact. I love being single, but it sure would be nice to have a Peeta in my life.

WELP, that's all folks. I'm off to continue reading the Hunger Games. I'm addicted... and in love with Peeta. I want a man like him. Please and thank you.

M. Philly

Spirit that brings happiness, rejection that brings peace

Today has been quite a day. It's been a day I have kinda been looking forward to. Why is that you ask?! Alright, alright, keep your pants on, I'll tell you!!!

1. IT'S FRIDAY!!!
I literally just starting singing that song in my head. NO! haha Well, this week has been a really long week for me. Not sure why, but it hasn't been the best. Maybe because I'm a little under the weather (aka I sound like a dying animal) or just that it's just been a crapper. I'm thinking... all of the above.

2. A fun-ish day at practice!
Actually, I wasn't looking forward to it, but it was fun so I'll take it! hahaha I'm in my school's production of Willy Wonka, in which I play both Charlie's mother and Violet's mother... yeah, I get called a flusy in practice all the time. lolz Lately, I've not been looking forward to practice because we're at that point where we are still learning new stuff, so it can get pretty boring, but today we actually ran stuff, so it was a lot more fun. I was laughing a lot which was great and I just had a good time... kinda one of the first times since we started back in January.

3. Kris' Baptism!!!!!
Who is Kris?! WELL, Kris Cates is a friend of Richelle Turner, now a friend of mine, whom she invited to come to church a while back and he has been coming for a few months and decided to join the church! It's really exciting to see someone get baptized because they are getting this awesome thing in their life. It's mind-blowing how amazing the church is. I love it with all of my heart and my life would not be the same without it... NO doubt. I'm just really happy and excited for Kris. He's a great guy and I know he will prosper in the gospel! Here is a pretty cute picture of me, him and Richelle.

4. Fun Day at Seminary!
Friday is scripture mastery day and I LOVE scripture chases. Plus the missionaries come on Fridays, which adds a little more fun to the equation!

5. Feeling the Spirit.
I love having spiritual experiences! They are the best things ever!!! At the baptism we watched a video, which I will post soon... not now... but it really touched me. Like legit, I was basically crying a river. I LOVE IT THOUGH! It's the best feeling in the world. It really shows that God is real and that he loves me and wants me to be happy and feel those good feelings. I just love it.

6. The RCS Boys Basketball Championship Game
It's the first time any sport at RCS has made it this far and they WON, so they are the 1A Division Champions! They are BEASTS on the court, let me just say that. I'm pretty proud to call myself a Bulldog! Congrats guys!

Pretty awesome looking group!

7. Hearing back from BYU.
Here comes that rejection part of the title. It's true, I heard back from BYU and it's also true, I got rejected. I don't want to say I'm not sad because I am a little bit, but I am far from devastated. I'm kinda at peace with it. I've known for a while I didn't really have a desire to go there anymore. I'm at the point where I don't want to be that far from home because I'm a little attached to this small town. I went to BYU this summer, thinking OMG I'm going to love every part of this place and I'm going to go here and YEAH, but it turns out that I didn't like it that much. It was just another place. Sure, I felt the spirit like crazy there, but I just felt lost in a sea of super smart and super talented people who made me feel really little. It was a humbling experience for me, but it helped me realize that BYU just isn't the place for me. I've been reassessing those feelings in the past couple weeks as I got accepted to UNCG and visited SVU and it's really been stressing me out where I want to go, so seeing I got denied is an answer to my prayers. I now know that I'm not meant to go there, and I'm not upset about that at all. Well, it is kinda depressing seeing like 5 people saying "Got into BYU!!!" I'm all good though. It will make my college decision a lot easier!

Welp, that's all for today folks. Thank you and I will leave you with one of favorite things in the world... a dancing Zebra. Just copy and paste the link, I promise it's worth it. Props to Michaela Huff for sending this to me just because it made her think of me. PRETTY hilarious. Keep on keeping on!

http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/4NHLZG/www.fohguild.org/forums/attachments/screenshots/193740d1327225119-animated-gif-thread-mhcp7.gif/



-M. Philly

Weekend Away!

I'm aware, I'm failing at posting more. It been almost a month, but hey... I'm posting now! Well, in case you were wondering, I'm doing pretty spantabulous... that is a mixture between spectacular, fantastic, and fabulous. I should put that it in the dictionary. Well, back to the reason I feel like blogging.

This weekend I'm going to the State Junior Miss program to cheer on 2 of my friends as they work their stuff on the stage. Anyway, as I'm leaving for the weekend, I'm going without my parents with just a bunch of girls and a couple moms. It's not like I haven't been to camps, or gone on vacations without my parents, but for some reason this occasion is different. It feels a little weird. I guess since I'm a Senior and this is kinda like my first HUGE event of my Senior year. (Yeah, my life is kinda boring.) I left my mom and dad this morning and I'm getting picked up after school and I'm super excited, but I feel like this is big step. Call me weird or crazy, but it's like the next step of growing up. Next I'll be off to college away from my parents for weeks and months! ahhh, I'm not ready to leave home yet! I love it too much. I was never really attached to home until this year and now I just don't want to leave the school and my band and just everything! Oh how I wish I could call up Peter Pan and escape to Neverland!

Anywho That's all I have to say for now, but YOU MUST WATCH THE FOLLOWING VIDEO!!!!!! It is a commercial I filmed, starred in, and edited. It was basically my idea, with a little help from dear ole' Mr. Swanson! Watch it... it's hilarious. I'll leave with this. PEACE AND BLESSINGS... peace and blessings.



-M. Philly

Differences

As I'm sitting here in a room full of 6th grade students, I'm kinda amazed. For one they are just awesome and I love every single one of them, but I love them all for different reasons. As I'm looking around at them I see so many different personalities! They are all in their little cliques and groups doing different things.
One group is sitting and talking about something silly on their laptops... those are the troublesome kids, but I still love them
Then there is the two laying on the floor playing a little game... I think they are kinda in love. Precious, I know.
There are 2 playing a game against each other on one of their phones. One of them happens to be one of my favorites.
My other two favorite boys are listening to "John Wall,? while rapping every word. No joke, they are beat masters and they are hilarious.
Then there is the little group of girls that are bffs one day and can't stand each other the next... pretty normal at this age.
Next are another two of my favorites who are super outgoing and hilarious.
Then the two bffs that say aww and just about everything. They are super cute.
Lastly, there are just the normal, one who happens to be a beast at the clarinet and another a beast on the flute, minding their own business, willing to talk to anyone. They are kinda like me.

As you can tell there are so many differences in about 20 kids. It just goes to show that God really exists because he created each of us to be so different! He has given us everything and has helped shape us into the people that we are. It's so incredible just watching and listening to all of them and I have never been so grateful for a group of kids in my life.

If I could, I would take a picture for you, but I don't have a camera on me and my laptop camera would not capture everyone the way I want. I hope one day you get to be with a group of kids this great! Have a beautiful day! :)


-M. Philly

Say HELLO to the End of the World

Ok, I don't believe in all this "THE WORLD IS GOING TO END IN 2012!" I think it's a bunch of bogus, but IT'S 2012 BABY!!!! Anywho, I have neglected to blog lately, so I was reading someone's today and thought I would. I just want to express my so-called "resolutions" for this eventful year to come!

1. Post more. And use more pictures because honestly, I get a little bored with my own blog... ok not really because I think I'm pretty hilarious, but it's like you're reading a book, so I will add more pictures to make things more exciting. (Just not today.)

2. Go on a date... a legit date! Not a prom date, like going ice skating or out to eat! A double date of course and I would like the guy to be pretty creative in choosing what we do. I like to dream big.

3. MANAGE MY TIME! I am horrible at managing my time and I'll be going off to college soon, so I need to improve on that greatly.

4. Go to bed earlier. I'm doing a bad job of that at this very moment.

5. Look nice at least 3 times a week. You may think this is silly, but I never give effort to look good for school. I throw my hair in a ponytail and throw on matching clothes. I feel that being a leader in my school, I need to be a good example and that includes looking nice.

6. Speak at my High School Graduation. It's been a dream since I came to RCS, so I'm going to make sure this happens. :)

7. Love more. That kinda explains itself.

8. READ more! I really want to read The Hunger Game series before the movie comes out.

That's all I can think of for now. Over the course of the year I hope to add to this list and mark some off, so if I do, I will be sure to BLOG IT!

Thank you. I really love saying thanks, because it really means a lot to me that you read my blog. To me, it makes me feel like you actually care about my life and well-being. (OR you just think I'm ridiculous and hilarious... OR ridiculously hilarious! HAHAHAHA! I crack myself up!)
Now, GO MAKE YOUR OWN RESOLUTIONS! I promise it will be worth it! :D

-M. Philly

Do you ever feel like a plastic bag?

Thank you Katy Perry for reminding me that I am indeed a firework. :D

Ok, I’m not one to complain or talk about my problems freely, but hey… this blog is simply for me to express my feelings for ME, not so much for the reader, BUT I greatly appreciate you reading this because it makes my heart happy, so if you choose not to read this complaint filled post, you are welcome to peace out and wait for a more uplifting post, which HOPEFULLY, main word hopefully, will come soon. Thank you.

Now down to business… I’m stressed… or not. I’m not really stressed at all. Sure I’ve got college apps I have still YET to fill out and send in, but that can be done anytime between now and about February. Also, I’m not really liking this blog layout… I need to change it. It’s kinda bothering me, but that’s another day.

Ok, now here go… I’m a little ADD if you can’t tell. Well today is not turning out to be very good. For 1, I’m bumming it, aka I look like I just rolled out of bed and put on the first thing I saw… (which is exactly what I did.) Then one of my teacher is a grumpy-head, but that happens, therefore I slept through that class. I actually did stay awake in the class in which I usually snooze in, my one and ONLY accomplishment of the day. THEN I just shot down. This is why I am feeling so… well… blah. You know that quote by Eleanor Roosevelt?

YES, well there is a certain person, might I add that she is indeed a educator, that makes me feel inferior, but I don’t give her consent… she just kinda takes it. I don’t like it. I despise going to her class because all that ever happens is

A. I get a paper back and it’s just not good enough for her

B. I try and participate and answer questions, but I’m never right

C. I’m having a terrible day and her lecturing us makes it 239487239473 times worse

OR

D. I see that she obviously likes some students more than others

I have had this “educator” for a while, but she has never really gotten to me until this year. It’s REALLY bothering me. I just want to cry every time I walk into that classroom. I’m not exaggerating one single bit. This class is NOT an easy one and I’m trying, I really am, but sometimes I just don’t get it. I read a poem, but I see that something is significant, but I don’t know why it is because I just don’t understand it! My brain is not very analytical and sometimes I feel there is just no hope at all. It’s like she doesn’t really understand that, so in turn she just make me feel worthless and I KNOW I have a LOT of worth. Now if I had to write about things like this, I would have an A freaking + in that class because I can blog like a BOSS. True story.

Anywho, I’m all about showing people why they have worth, so if I EVER become a teacher, which I am very much considering, I will try to NEVER make anyone feel inferior because I know I absolutely abhor that feeling. (There is a nice big word for ya!!!) I really just want to teach kids that Yeah, things aren’t always going to be easy, but it’s ok if you don’t get it. I will help you without making you feel like a complete and total idiot and letting you know it’s ok to ask for help! I know I don’t like to ask this teacher for help because every time I do it’s like she is thinking “This girl is in 12^th grade and doesn’t understand how to analyze a freaking poem!? REALLY! She’s just not as good as little Miss Perfect sitting at the front. She is just not smart enough. She is just not good enough. She isn’t getting better, but she getting worse. There is just not much hope left for her.” That’s how I feel she feels. I know she doesn’t… well to that extent because she likes me… or at least I think she does, but she just makes me feel like nothing but dirt that she enjoys stomping on. I don’t like it, so I know I’m not going to do that to my students, if I ever have students. Seriously though, at this moment in time, all I feel like just going home and sleeping my life away. ALSO, a true story.

Ahhh, I feel better now. It feels good to let things out sometimes. It would be nice for this educator read this, but that will never happen. She would probably nit-pick every grammatical error in this joint, but I DON’T CURR! (<- dat be my ghetto tawk.) This is MY blog and I can talk however the heck I want to, so you can stick that in your juice box and just take a nice sip because juice boxes are amazing. Hahaha fooled you on that one, I KNOW! Seriously though, I love this blog because of the freedom I have.

Ok, I have written way too much. A whole 877 words as of the word “whole.” Thank you and I will be happier soon… after I nap. :)

-M. Philly