Vent

Hey all you boys and girls! Been a long time, I'm aware, but I'M BACK! I will soon have a lot more free time, so I can post more! Exciting, I know. WELL, I've had a few things on my mind for the past few months, but I haven't had much time to vent them out, so that's what I'm going to do. If you don't feel like reading, that is quite alright. This blog here is just kinda therapeutic for me. It's just a place I can go and write my feelings without having to physically writing it. Anywho, back to these things on my mind...

A. How great is this place?! The earth is just so magnificent that I can't even describe how much it makes me happy. The sky, the stars, the sun, THE MOON(which is extremely full tonight), EVERYTHING is so mind blowingly amazing. Yes, I did just make up blowingly... BUT more than just the earth, but my town, my home, and my school! I love them all. I love Roxboro. It's a great place and people don't appreciate how great it is! My house just got all redone on the outside, so it's looking pretty baller! I love my house and how it protects me and it's a home. I LOVE my school. I wouldn't want to be at any other school. Sure, some of the teachers bother me just a bit, but for the most part it's an amazing learning environment. I love it so much and it makes me not want to graduate....

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B. is for boys... Oh those rotten ole' boys with their charming ways and good looks. You just can't seem to resist them. Boys have not been something that is on my mind a lot for a long while, until these past few months. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm thinking more in depth and more maturely about relationships and guys and things of that manner. Through all this thinking, coming from experiences and such, I have concluded that it's next to impossible to find the right guy... I am completely aware that I'm only 17 (almost 18), but there are always issues with guys. You think you find one you REALLY like and they are just so great but there is always something in the way... Let's think of some of those things

1. They have a girlfriend. (Even though you would so much better with him than her)
2. They are too young. I think I just attract the younger kids... What's wrong with me!?!
3. They live far away. Long distance relationships, yeah they don't really work out.
4. They are a total and complete jerk bag to other people(yet super nice to you).
5. (In my case) They're not Mormon. Common issue for me.
6. They won't commit... aka they like to flirt with all the ladies.

Aren't these all true!?!?! Some of these I find watching others relationships, because let's face it... I haven't had the most experience with relationships, but I do know a few things. I know it's really hard when you like a guy with so much of your being, but you know you can't have him and it just KILLS you inside to see him and you can't even talk to him because you know it will just cause you more pain! And the guy you don't see that often, but when you do your cheeks turn bright red, your heart starts beating 100 miles an hour, but you know that your relationship is all over and past, even though you KNOW you both still have feelings for each other. Yeah, not fun... at all. BUT despite the fact that boys have been kinda stressing my brain and feelings a bit lately, I'm single and I'm completely happy with that fact. I love being single, but it sure would be nice to have a Peeta in my life.

WELP, that's all folks. I'm off to continue reading the Hunger Games. I'm addicted... and in love with Peeta. I want a man like him. Please and thank you.

M. Philly