Finally...

Yep, the day is almost here... Graduation day. I still can't believe it. It's such an insane feeling to think WOW, high school is actually over! I'm close to tears just thinking about it. School has been 13 years in the making and I'm finally done. Now on to college with a bunch of people I don't know. No more seeing the same faces I've been seeing for 5, 10, or 12 years. No more giving Mrs. Wilkerson a high-five everyday. No more school plays. No more band... AHHHHH I'm being too sad about this. Let's think about the happy side of this whole thing. No more AP classes... aka no more AP TEAHCER. (Yes, I meant to leave that singular) No more having to wake up at 6:30 for seminary every morning. No more annoying underclassmen who think they are better than the upperclassmen. No more dress code, but despite all the great things about leaving high school, I'll be sad. I'll probably cry... like a big baby along with many other people in my class. I'll be wishing the band was there playing and all my favorite 6th graders was there to yell my name. Oh garsh, I'm going to miss those 6th graders so stinkin' much. They were the highlight to my day. My sunshine on a rainy day and now I'm not going to get to see them every day!!!! I never thought this would be so hard. I always thought "Man, I can't wait to get out of high school and get out of this place," but I don't want to leave. I just want to stay right where I am and never leave, but I know it's time for me to move on and grow up. Gross, I know. On the upside, I will achieve one of my goals on Friday!!! YES, I am speaking at graduation!!! I am just so stinkin' excited, but I have NO idea what to say. I'm at a total loss for words with this speech! How do you say "hey thanks for coming" and then sum up how much RCS means to me?! It's not something easily put into words... maybe I'll say that. hahaha I'm just really thankful for how amazing RCS is and the great experiences, friends, memories, and knowledge I've gained from being there. RCS truly is the best school around. I couldn't imagine my life without it and I know I would be completely different without it. I love my fellow seniors and I will miss them all, but I'm so happy for all of them and I know their futures are bright!

CLASS OF 2012 BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Useless...?

I discovered this guy on youtube today. His name is Jon Cozart... pretty hilarious and talented and quite good looking. He is a complete and total nerd, which makes me love him all the more, BUT he has a tumblr and as I looked at it for a while I came across something he re-blogged and I quite liked it.This is what it said.




"You get home from a long day at work and turn on the TV. It’s been a long week, so you think to yourself- maybe i’ll take the family to a movie on Saturday. Maybe we’ll even go on a vacation soon! We could visit museums and go to plays and see all sorts of fun attractions.

When you turned the TV on, nothing happened. There are no actors to entertain you.
When you went to the movie theater, nothing was showing. There were no advertisements to tell you that anything was showing, so you went to the theater to find out. Nothing playing. There is no one to film and create movies for you. Well at least your vacation will be fun, right? Not like there will be any plays to see and there won’t be anything in the art museums.
Well at least you have the shack you are living in that you made out of cardboard and sheets.

Not like you could find an architect to build you a house with all the money you’re making as an engineer."


Being a theatre lover and wanting to major is something pertaining to theatre, I more than appreciated and loved this. It's completely true. What would the world do without actors. There would be no entertainment and nothing to watch. Just some food for thought.

- M. Philly

Happens for a reason.

You know how people say that everything happens for a reason? Well, I firmly believe that. I also think that people say things or do things for you at just the time you need it. It's not a coincidence that my sister sent me a message that encouraged me more than anything has in a really long time, when I have been feeling absolutely no confidence in myself or my words. I've been struggling lately with my school work... well really just English... and I have not been grasping things. It's something really frustrating to me and I hate it!!! I've lost a lot of confidence in my ability to work and partly because I feel I'm never quite good enough for my teacher. As the AP test is tomorrow, I have been struggling to find that confidence I need to go into it with. I've simply been thinking "I'm going to fail. There is no hope. I failed last year, I'm going to BOMB it this year." I have had no hope and no drive, but I do now. I've got to practice what I preach and be enthusiastic and go in thinking "I'm going to do my absolute best and it's going to be great." I know I'll be fine tomorrow, now... with a little cram review of literary terms and novels and of course a blessing from Dad in the morning. I'm going to walk into that room thinking, hoping, and praying for the best for ALL my classmates. My confidence is here and I'm going to be fine, so thanks for that boost. I LOVE YOU. Now... "Why you tryin' act like somebody hit you upside the head with a basketball?" Just thought I would add that in for some comic relief.

-M. Philly

Proud to be...

No matter what happened today  in North Carolina, I am MORE than proud to be an American and a North Carolinian. I live in a country that allows me to vote and have my say in what happens. Sure, it sucks for people that lose or in today's case an amendment passes that you don't agree with, but wining about it on Facebook is not going to change anything. If  you want to make a difference, then DO SOMETHING other than complain about how stupid you think people are because they don't believe the same things you do. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion and you shouldn't judge people because they believe differently Honestly, I feel people might crucify me if I said I was for the amendment... some of the posts I have been reading tonight make me wonder if people would. I'm not going to express my views or my opinions because it's all been said and done. My main point for this post is just to say that I love this country and my state because it is one of the best places on this earth to live. Why do you think so many people come here illegally?! BECAUSE IT'S THE BOMB.COM!  If you don't appreciate it, then move... yeah, I don't think you hate it that much. I respect your opinions and your views and I hope you will do the same for me. I just REALLY hope people get this into the election in November because it is WAY more important in my eyes because we are voting for a ruler, a very powerful person, a leader and people don't really grasp that the President REALLY does make a difference. Well, guess what... they kinda do. I suggest you read up on the candidates if you go and vote. I have been because I'll be able to vote this November and I intend to take full advantage of that opportunity because I don't want someone in office that is going to damage OUR country. I have been trying to investigate the candidates and not rely on my parents beliefs, which I hope many of today's youth will do. I am in no way trying to sway your vote at all, but I just want to share this AWESOME video for Mitt Romney. It is quite excellent. It brought an overwhelming feeling over me that was a more than good feeling. It was a GREAT feeling... especially the "God-fearing man" part. I like it a lot... so much actually that I favorited it. No hate, just facts and done in a creative and effective way. Please watch it. It is worth your time. (It not showing up on the blog, SO the link is below.)

http://youtu.be/qKMDS4cB58U


Thank you and GOD BLESS AMERICA. 


M. Philly

Change, for good.

Lalala life... well life is crazy right now and not a good kind of crazy. AP tests start this week and I want to scream just thinking about it. I'm kinda done with the whole school thing. Thank GOODNESS I only have a few more weeks of legit schooling. I graduate June 1st and I'm pretty stoked, yet totally terrified. I think my goal of speaking at graduation is a no-go which makes me want to cry, but I guess I'll get over it. I'm simply introducing speakers... I'm literally almost to tears as I type this, but it is what it is. Also, I think I may be the only person in my senior class that doesn't have a single thing figured out. I've been accepted to Southern Virginia University and UNC-G, but I really don't have a good feeling about either school at this time. I confused and tired and AHHH! I'm thinking I may just stay at home for a year and go to PCC, the community college here in town, until I figure out what I want to do with my life. I think that is going to be the best thing for me because I don't feel quite mature enough to go off on my own. I'm kinda lazy and I waste way too much time on ridiculous things, so taking this year to collect myself and save up some money will help me. It's not a definite choice, but it's a high contender in my list of plans. I'm just going to change a lot of things about myself, for the better.

I'm not going to waste time.
I'm going to be healthy, which means exercising and eating good.
I'm going to be more diligent in my scripture study.
I'm going to be a better friend.
I'm going to HAVE FUN and take risks, without breaking morals.
I'm going to have a social life, which I'm lacking in right now... thank you McDonald's for making me work every weekend.
I'm going to make new friends.
I'm going to love more... love EVERYONE.
I'm going to be more kind to people and myself.
I'm going to grow in the church and really strive to grow my testimony. 
I'm not going to be jealous of people that I really shouldn't be jealous.
I'm going to learn something new everyday.
I'm going to do something different.
I'm going to find more good books to read. (Hunger games... best series ever.)
I'm going to write down my thoughts and these crazy stories I waste so much time imagining.
I'm going to go to more concerts.
I'm going to keep my room clean.
I'm going to improve my talents.
I'm going to spend more time with my family.
I'm going appreciate people more.
I'm going to learn more songs on guitar.

I'm going to be the best I can be. 

Yes, yes I am. I have said this for a while, but I'm going to do it this time... forrealz. I'm tired of people being disapointed in me and being disappointed in myself. I WILL change and you can hold this against me.Actually, please do hold it against me and remind me! I would write more, but it's way past my bedtime, so I will have to explain some things later. For now I must go read Sparknotes... I'm very thankful for this wonderful site that has gotten me through English since 9th grade. I would read this book, but really.. Tess of the d'Urbervilles just doesn't seem to interesting to me. Peace to your brother and your mother.

-M. Philly

PS... I'm kind of in love with One Direction. They are quite dreamy and talented... but I must say Niall is my favorite just because he is so adorable. I will have to write a post about them because they deserve one. Their album is pretty great... just enough pop to satisfy. Sorry, the old crazed fan girl Madeline is back in town. lolz